@pythno It's honestly only been rather recently that psych has started to recognise that autism is more than the stereotypes. I wasn't even on the charts, because I was vocal, smart, good at (subconsciously) doing eye contact.
I was 9 when I told my mom that I never smiled. I was always different from other kids too. I was hurt by things they weren't, and I didn't always react the way they expected (and they didn't react the way *I* expected).
Have you ever been in the situation that there's something you need to do--maybe even *want* to do--but you just ... can't? Or that you procrastinate and get overwhelmed easily. Maybe there's stuff that you "should" be able to to do, but it feels like you *literally can not*?
I recommend checking the hashtag #ActuallyAutistic and the group @actuallyautistic (the "actually" is in contrast to people who posit their expertise because they know someone who's autistic, not in contrast/opposition to people who are self-realised or just wondering and unsure)