Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

I've been quiet for a bit. There were a few busy days, where the routine was slightly (well, more than that, to be honest) off, and I needed to improvise and adapt. Which meant that I was struggling some. Feeling tired and exhausted. But not getting the amount of (decent) sleep that I really need.

My weight did go down a slight bit. Yesterday it was 79,8 and today it was 80,4. Still too high, but better than 82+. I'm still glad I was able to improve a bit, even with the stress of all the changes...

Yesterday, I worked on the front garden, tried to get out weeds. I worked hard (I think) for about an hour. And then my hands, legs, and back started to fail me and I was just exhausted!

I took some painkillers and I rested in the back garden eith cold drink and my eBook. Which was very nice, even though I felt my body getting sore as I sat.

The garden isn't done yet. Nope. It will need more work for sure! But... That hour I took out loads of weeds. So it does look better than it did before I started. Even though it still looks rather messy, which I hate...

If my body allows, I'll try to get some more weeds out this early morning. And then I'll reward myself with some gaming after that.

I'm wearing my elbow brace now, because I triggered my "epicondylitis lateralis" (we call it a tennis elbow) and I still had a simple brace for it. So I'm using it every now and then to give some relief to my elbow. The brace is an older one so maybe I do need a new one? But the good ones are expensive, and my funds are low this month due to Arwen and the TLC for Skoosh... So hopefully this brace will do me right for a while longer...

I have about two more weeks for the front garden. Then I should have some money again, and I fan buy the screen for the ground covering, so that should help reduce the weeds coming back. The screen is not that expensive, but with low funds, everything is expensive unfortunately...

Ah well, let's see what I can manage. I do hope that my hands and arms will heal up soon, as I do miss doing the exercises with them. Although I suspect that hauling weeds and sand with a shovel counts a bit as a workout as well.

Onward and upward!

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Hmmm

I tried on some pants and I guess I'm at "that space" again. Where one size is just too small. But one size up, it's a bit too wide...

I really want to fit into the smaller pants again... But somehow, my body seems to be stuck between 80-83 kilos.

I wanna het below that 80, but I can't seem to change my pattern at the moment... I'll have a few good days and my weight will lower a tad. And then I get a setback and I'm back to where I was before.

I know I'm exercising less now due to my leg and my hands. But it's just too hard at the moment to snack less...

Ah well... Gotta keep trying or things will only get worse I guess...

Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Well... It's bren quite a few crazy days. Hopefully today, I will be able to relax some, of course after doing some bits and bops.

Unfortunately, my weight this morning was back at 82. Even after all the hard work, I gained some weight again...

Thursday was the usual Germany groceries day. But we had to rush a bit, as mum had an appointment she needed to be home for. So that triggered me some, as I felt I was under pressure to get everything done even faster than I usually do it.

Thursday evening, mum was administered in the hospital. Nothing too bad and she's getting the help she needs now. But that added a bit to my chores for the Friday.

I already told dad I'd help him wash the car. I also got him some groceries and I walked the dogs. The car was hard work, and I had muscle aches before the afternoon was over. I took an extra painkiller to get some sleep.

I woke up earlier due to my muscles being sore. I rode the seated bike for half an hour. Sneaked in a second round of ten minutes at the massage chair.

Had a decent walkies with Arwen. And then... I got to the treadmill and walked for an hour (4,4km, with 55 minutes with a 3% incline).

Relaxing a bit now, while my steps are at 14.8k, so that's pretty decent. I'll take Arwen to the Herperduin in about an hour. After that... I need to let the dishwasher and washing machine work. And... I hope to relax with some gaming with a sweet friend.

Busy, busy morning... Relaxing afterwards, I hope...

Hope you'll have a lovely day today folks!

Well..... I did it. I did it all...

And now I'm dead!

Did it all go properly?
Nope.

Did I give it all I could?
Yup.

I'm tired and sore. But... I did it...

Walked the treadmill for half an hour.
Hoovered the downstairs area.
Mopped most of the downstairs area.

The mopping could have been done better. But with my hip and bad thumb, I did what they allowed me to do. At least the floors should be a wee bit cleaner... At least till the next walk with Arwen!

When the floors are dry, I'll have a quick wash and change of clothes. And then I'll be a couch potato till it's time for walkies.

Pixy's Fit Journey is doing ok enough for today!

Heck, during the mopping I just closed all three of the Samsung Health hearts!

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Well... I'm on the treadmill...

I don't know how long I can walk until the leg hates me. I can do the SniffiVerse™ walkies, but they're slow and mostly flat. I am not walking too fast, with 4,4kmh. But I do have a 3% incline now, as I want to challenge my legs a wee bit...
I just wish that I could walk on higher speeds again without the fear of my leg giving out...

So, walking now.

It will be followed by a round through the house with the hoover (only downstairs). And then I'll kick my own behind and I need to mop as well. As the floors definitely need it!

Hopefully then, I'll have some time to relax before Arwen wants walkies again.

But... Step by step... Just feels weird to be proud of doing this, while it used to be a normal thing for me to do...

I'm debating myself.
I wanna walk the treadmill.
I know I could do a short walk.
I think it would help me feel better.
But...
It means changing some clothes and leaving the couch.
And my dark monster is making me lazy.
But...
If I'd walk a bit, I could hoover after that. And... I could mop the floors after that.
And then my chores would be done.
I'd be able to feel better due to the exercises and due to finishing the chores.
You see, there's so many positives!
And still...
I struggle to "just" do it...
Ugh.

Sorry, it seems my mood is not the best today...

let's just do it?

Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Trying to get some exercises in. It feels too hard these days. Where I used go be almost unstoppable, I now can hardly find any motivation.

My leg is annoying.
My hands have been had the last few days.
My brain feels like giving up.
The struggle is too hard, and I don't get any "quick" results, so it's just so hard to keep motivated.

I want my energy back. The motivation to really make a difference again. Not the bad hip with all it's restrictions. Not the bad thumb that keeps dislocating...

I know I never get better. This is my life. But some moments, I just don't feel like trying anymore... And that sucks...

Sorry for this... I will keep trying, just gotta figure out how...

Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Can I get this surgery already? I'm so done with that leg not working properly... And the tingling just hurts and I hate it... It's so bad for my motivation as well. As the discomfort just sucks all energy out of me...

Sorry, I hate moaning about it! But it just gets harder every day to deal with it...

Tuesday around 15 I should get the call. Fingers crossed there won't be any infection and they can soon schedule the surgery. So I can make arrangements and be done with it ASAP...

But yeah, knowing my luck , I'll probably have to start on antibiotics first...

I try to keep going, but part of me just wants to give up. Throw in the towel and all that... But I know it will only worsen my situation, so I need to keep doing whatever I can...

Fankoos for all your support through this wobbly journey. I really appreciate it .

Catch you later folks !

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Ugh... My body is not liking me today... I did a bare minimum at the gym, as my leg was rattling and tingling very quickly. Ugh...
We did have a decent SniffiVerse™ walkies.
I'm trying to ride the hometrainer now, but my neck is ouchy.
It feels like it needs a good snap and crack, and then I should get some relief again.
But as there is no physio till April 1st, I need to try my exercises and pain meds.
I won't be doing the dumbbells exercises today, as my head is already woozy from the bike ride. And I do want to be able to read my book a little after the ride...

If only that stupid body of mine would be in better shape...

Sorry, I hate complaining about it. But when I feel like this, I feel so lonely and I just need to vent...

Ah well.... I'll ride for 6 more minutes, if my leg allows, and then I'll head back down to crash on the couch with my book for a bit. But, if my neck keeps being like this, I may need a painkiller and some telly first, as concentrating on text is a bit hard when your neck is making your head hurt some...

Hey ho! Catch up with you later folks! thanks for all the support!

Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Hope you're all doing well! It's almost weekend dears! yay!

One more busy day today, OK, there is just one appointment, but still...

GP at 8, to talk about the bad days I've been having with my ADHD. Where I get such a bad headache that tears form in my eyes. Where I'm so sensitive to sound and light that I need to black out the room as much as I can. That I just can't focus or relax... Someone suggested that, for those days, there may me some medication that could support my methylphenidate. So that's what I wanna ask the GP, and I hope she can help me with that.

Exercises so far:
I rode the seated bike this morning until my leg got too bad, which was about 40 minutes. We had a decent walk with Arwen, slow but very enjoyable. I rode the hometrainer for 30 minutes. I did several exercises with my dumbbells and abs-roller. Short walk with Arwen. And now I've been riding the hometrainer again for 40 minutes......

I'll walk to the GP soon, and back. Then, I'll take Arwen to the Herperduin, where hopefully it won't be too busy.

After that? I guess I will crash and be exhausted.

Or... Maybe I'll have some energy to play a game... And, of I go nuts, I may see about pulling some weeds

Anywhoo.... Some relaxing now, before I have to walk to the GP (and back). Let's see how today will go...

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

I'm struggling a bit at the moment. I know I'm trying to keep my weight stable, as I've not been able to lower it in the last few months. But I'm bummed that it won't get any lower. That it's so hard to not snack, to exercise enough, to get to a healthier weight.

In my mind, there's so much I know I want to do, I need to do, and I should be doing.
But when it comes to actually doing it...

It's so hard to push myself. So... I give up, I give in, and then I give myself a sh*t time over it. ugh...

That's why I started the group and the hashtag, to try and get more people together, to share the goal, to support each other when things get rough, to cheer when things go well...

But the first three months, there's not been much animo from others. And, while it didn't surprise me, I have to be honest and admit that I was/am a bit disappointed.

I am single. I don't have too many IRL friends near, most live far away. I do have some people I consider as friends on here. But... I can't expect them to be there for me all the time. I feel bad for asking for help. I feel I should be able to do it on my own. But yeah...

That's not been going too well the last few months...

Sorry... Didn't want to complain too much, just struggling with this all... Ugh... Some moments, it's all good to be on my own. But some other moments, I do miss the presence of a lover, supporter, friend, that can accompany me and help me through it.

Anywhoo... Fankoos for reading... Hope you'll have a lovely day today.

Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Decided to get a short ride on the hometrainer before working on my blog. Just a short one, then I'll do a few dumbbell exercises. I don't want to miss out on them. And if I do the blog first then I guess I'll just "forget" about the exercises...

So, here I go . A short ride, some exercises, and then... At least I'll have done my best to not abandon my exercises, like I've done so many times before.

Hey ho, let's do this!

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

It's been quite a journey so far, for the #FitIn2025 bit... I've not made a lot of progress. My weight keeps going between just below the 80 and 82. When I think I've done well, my weight seems to go up, when I think I've messed up, the weight again goes up some...

I've been trying to lower my calories intake. But due to the hip issues, I feel my exercises have gone down a bit as well. So I really need to try to do more of those again, so that I can *finally* maybe get below the 80 kilo's again... I really wonder how I did it last year?!

I know I should not obsess too much about numbers, and I should be mindful of my current situation with the damned hip. Getting shorter walkies with Arwen is also a thing, as she can't always go longer walkies anymore. So I need to be fair to myself, but it's hard, as my brain is so eager to get that weight below 80, and then something lower as well...

I know that, at least, I'm keeping myself stable, and that the exercises that I do are beneficial to me and my well-being. So it's definitely not a lose... But when the numbers don't change as you hoped them to, it can be a bit disappointing.

But I won't give up! I know I can do this, and I know that by not giving up, I'm doing all I can at the moment, and that is good.

Fankoos for all your support here! I really appreciate it!

Let's do this!

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Good morning (#TZAG ) to you all!

After I've done some cardio at the gym, but skipped the strength bits, I decided I needed to do "something" at home.

So after the SniffiVerse™ walkies, I rode the hometrainer for 35 minutes. Then, I rolled out my fitness mat, and I used the abs-roller for a bit. I got my 3kg dumbbells and did three sets of two exercises.

Maybe it's not much... But I did something like this yesterday as well. So I'm hoping that the little things will add up. And that, hopefully, I'll get some confidence and motivation again, to kick some ass (preferably my own ) at the strength bits of the gym...

Usually, the Sunday to Monday nights are less busy. So maybe, fingers crossed and all that , I will be brave enough to get to some action again tomorrow night.

I did get some steps in with Arwen, and they're at 69% now. So hopefully, a few more walks with Arwen should do the trick there.

Hope your having a good (sporty) weekend! Good luck with reaching your goals!

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Good morning from me to you, please do insert a #TZAG here...

Today wasn't a good day at the gym. I tried the crosstrainer but only lasted 5 minutes.
I rode the hometrainer for half an hour. I used the dumbbells a bit, and my abs-roller as well.
Had some walkies with Arwen, got to 80% of my goal so far. But I had a meal with a high killer-calories amount, as someone likes to call them , so I do need to do my best some more.

But I have some gaming planned, which means more time on my big behind...

I did *finally* do a chore that I've been putting off for ages! I will need to do it some more soon, but at least now I know that I can do it...

I really need to pick up my work, exercise wise, and get more serious about it. I do hope that there are folks of @fitin2025 that will be able to kick me in the big behind during gym time... I could really use that...

Hope you'll all have a good and sporty weekend!

Keep on doing your best and I'll keep cheering you on!

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#FitIn2025

Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Current step goal is at 89%.
I'll walk to the supermarket in about 25 minutes (and then back), this is about 2k in total. So that should push me towards the 100% for sure.

I have another walk with Arwen, before I'll settle on the couch for gaming with a sweet friend! yay!

And then another walk before bed time, so I should be good for the steps and all that.

I really hope that tonight, I can push myself back to the strength section of the fitness, and at least do a few exercises there. I *need* to get back at that... If anyone could kick my big behind when I'm at the gym tonight? That would be really appreciated (of you could join me, that would even be more awesome hihi).

Well, some relaxing now and then I'll get my bag for the walk... The sun is shining, but it's still a tad cold with -2°C.

Catch you later folks

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Just walked with Arwen, after only riding the seated bike for half an hour at the gym. So I'm riding the hometrainer now, lowest setting, as I don't want to overdo my leg... But I do want to get some exercise in. I'm watching Dexter: Original Sin while I'm riding. But I'm not really enjoying the ride. I feel tired and pressured, even though it's me putting the pressure on myself.

I've not been able to lose any weight for quite a while now, and it's wearing me down. If there was any progress...

But then, I've had several moments where my eating disorder went wild! So all the better days I've had, they just melted away after the binge fests that I've indulged myself on...

I don't want to give up, as I know the things I am doing, they are at least helping me to not gain too much... But I'd feel so much better if I could just lose a wee bit and finally get below the 80kgs.

Ah, let's see if I can ride half an hour without my leg starting to tingle too badly... And then I guess I'll see about fixing some food...

Hope you'll all have a lovely day today! it's almost weekend folks!

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Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

Riding the hometrainer and I just feel bläh...

I *know* it's the upcoming procedure today at the hospital that is freaking me out already... Mind is just a mess right now, and I know I need to distract myself a bit, but I don't feel like riding the bike is doing that for me.

All my brain would want me to do right now is lay on the couch and chill out. I'll try to keep riding a bit, but my hip feels a bit wobbly at the moment. If that makes any sense .

Arwen wanted a "in-between" walkies today, and my hip kinda approved. Still, I tried to get on the bike to see if I can get some exercise in.

But seeing how badly I've been sleeping lately, I may end it at half an hour and then, indeed, just crash on the couch for a little while. Maybe it will help me take the edge of my anxiety...

Hopefully, soon, I'll know more about the upcoming surgery, and if I have an infection or not, and then I can focus some more on my health again, and my weight...

Hope you're all having a good time folks! #TZAG

Catch y'all later!

I didn't walk the treadmill this morning, as I surprised myself, and I did ride the hometrainer for an hour.
I've had several walks with Arwen now, and my step count is at 72%, but there are still several walkies to go...
I've only had breakfast, so far. Usually I eat my second meal earlier, but I found that it was getting silly early, and then I'd be very hungry throughout the day, so then it was so easy to overeat. So, with a slightly rumbling tummy now, I am waiting with the next meal till after the groceries have been done.
I need to make some changes, and I need to be strong and not give in when it seems to be "hard".
My eating disorder knows all the ways to trick me, and I know that I had a decent breakfast, so I also know that I can do some more things until it would be wise to eat again.
I'm not too eager to head to the store though, as I have to drive there. And I am feeling a bit tired, as it got colder again, and of course my tummy is trying to trick me into an early meal... So that is probably not really helpful either...
Anywhoo....
Let's relax a bit, and in 20 minutes, I'll head to Skoosh and get the groceries and all.
Then, a meal. Followed by another walkies with my lovely gall.

Sorry for my babbling! I hope you all have a lovely start of the new week.

Ello sweet (and sporty) Friendos

The scale does not like me. It's that time of month, although I'm using my birth control pills to skip it this time (I have a puncture appointment in the hospital, and it's near my pelvis, at the hip area, so I didn't want to have to deal with the messy stuff during that procedure). But still, my weight often still responds to it.

It did give me a reasonable health score, which wasn't too bad... So I guess the weight stuff will most likely be the hormones messing with me...

I tried to do my best at the gym, even though it was only a 40 minute seated bike ride. I did my best with walkies with Arwen. Riding the hometrainer now. But my back is annoying me some. So I may quit early and then try the treadmill for a bit.

Even though the scale isn't my friend, I am not gonna give up. I know that, if I do that the scale will go from hating me to destroying me! Or... I it...

I have some chores to do today. Need to visit a supermarket, one today and one tomorrow. They're not in the same area, so I can't do them in one go...

And I wanna get some gaming in today as well. So... I hope that I can get some exercises in before the chores and gaming. And, I need to watch what I buy at the store, so I don't overload myself with unhealthy snacks...

One step at a time...

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